Love?

Hi again 👋, it's been a while since I last posted on this blog, back then when I didn't have a blog I have a lot of things on my mind that I wanted to say but now that I've started blogging, every idea just seems to slip away. Nonetheless, I've promised myself to update this blog once after every exam, which means every year you guys can expect me to have an average of about 10 blog posts and since I have 5 exams per semester, and every year there are 2 semesters, well I guess you can do the math yourself. 🖩

Anyway, I just finished my final year exam last Wednesday and  I swear to god I feel suuuupppeeeerrrr duuuuupppppeeeerrrrr relieved right now. 🙆 I've been studying diligently (okay I lied, I studied and played a lot during study week, but I guess that's what all normal people do hehe) and now that it's finally over I can do things that I've been wanting to do, like updating my blog. For my second post, I'll talk about love 💞since it is one of the most popular subjects out there. First of all, let me clear up the confusion regarding my current situation. People need to know that I have never got myself involved with the boyfriend-girlfriend thing, never have and never will (I hope), and I intend to stay that way until the end of my degree year. What about "A" you may ask, we're just friends, nothing more than that. Initially, I'm ok when a few people joke about us, but when people start to seriously think that there's something going on between the two of us, I think I need to clarify what's really going on. I actually have already tweeted about this stuff but I'm just going to go more into detail about this since it's easier to talk about complex things on a blog compared to using twitter. 💆


First of all, one of the reasons why I'm not interested in this whole boyfriend-girlfriend couple thing is that I promised my mama that I will not get involved in a relationship while pursuing my degree, it may sound funny or nonsensical, but that's what I promised her before entering medical school. I promised her 2 things:
1) I will be one of the top students here (LMAO I don't think that ever happened 😆). In order to be one of the best, you need to really really REALLY study hard, even more so for a blockhead like me, or any of us for that matter, and unfortunately for me, I'm a lazy bum, I study and play a lot, and in terms of academic, I think I'm above average. Barely surviving, but that's good enough, as long as I'm leading a fun, stress-free life that's all that matters I guess.
2) Strictly no lovey dovey relationship until I got my degree.
And since I'm a man of my words I intend to stick to my promise, I don't want to be someone who goes back on his words, that's not me, I want to be someone she can trust, I mean, she's my mama, the number one woman in my life, wouldn't want to lose her trust. 😊


The next reason would be because I personally believe that it's not the time for that kind of thing yet. I'm not ready, not mature enough, I can't even handle myself so how can I handle other people 🤣. For the next 4-5 years, I would prefer to focus on upgrading myself, in all aspects, spiritually 👼, physically 🏃, emotionally 😵, and not to forget my attitude 🕱, not for my future spouse but just because I want to be a better version of myself. As of now, I don't think I'm responsible enough for a relationship, or willing to be committed to someone else. Besides, I believe there is more to life than finding "the one". There's a whole lot of things that we should look forward to, just because you're single that doesn't mean that you cannot be happy. Single is okay as long as you're not lonely. Most of us have friends and families to spend time with, which I believe what people should be doing more instead of spending time with your girlfriend/boyfriend. Yes he or she is your current love partner and might be your future spouse, but do enlighten me on how much time you spend with your girlfriend/boyfriend compared to your parents, and yet you complain that your parents are different, do not understand you, et cetera. You are the one who's not making time for them and you dare say such things about them? 🙄

One of my favourite speakers out there, Mr Nouman Ali Khan once said, all these relationships that we think are so awesome, it's actually a product of low self-esteem, especially for the girls. You think that no one is going to like you, marry you and all of that stuff. On the other hand, we have the guys, who most of the time just have raging hormones and daydream about girls and stuff like that, it doesn't mean that you're in love, it just means that you haven't controlled your temptations yet. You tell me if the girl you like is 50 pounds fatter, or her face got burned or her ear got cut off or something, would you still be in love with her, or do you find somebody else to love all of a sudden? And if you can't answer that question honestly then you're not in love, you're just hormonal, that's all you are. There's a fine line between love and infatuation that people need to learn to differentiate. 🤔

Coming to the end of this post, I really hope that everyone would respect my decision to not get involved in a love relationship. To be frank, I don't appreciate people around me associating me with other girls, if you guys do it once or twice for banter I guess it's ok, but if you do that all the time it's a bit annoying actually, and makes me feel a bit uncomfortable. In any case, owing to the fact that I'm currently on a 6 week holiday I might update this blog more often. I don't know, depends on whether I have the time or not, but sometimes even when I have all the time in the world to do something beneficial I will end up not doing it because that's just what I am, a lazy bum 😪. I guess my friends should call me a sloth instead of keli. Till we meet again, adios. ✌